Scary Thoughts

So I have read that it is very commom for dreams to be very vivid and feel "real." Before last night, I only had one dream like that. I had dreamt an old and dear neighbor of mine had passed away, and I woke up crying so hard! Last night, I had to wake Russ up. I had dreamt that I was bleeding and lost the baby! It was horrible! I really thought it had happened. I do know why I was dreaming that way though.

I had this strange feeling near my belly button all afternoon and evening and even in bed. It felt like I had pulled a stitch, if you know what I mean. It was very strange, and I allowed myself to panic about it. Here it is now 9am, and I feel just fine. I really do work myself up before giving myself a chance to rest and to be quiet and to clear my head!

I think it is so cool to have such vivid dreams- I just hope my next one is something more pleasant! :)

Baby Update

Yesterday was the big ultrasound! The little one was very cooperative in terms of not revealing it's gender! That is a big YAY for me!

The results:

The baby weighs 10 ounces. Heart is looking and pumping good at 144 beats per minute. Everything looked good on the ultrasound! The baby is breach at the moment.

Momma has gained 6 pounds but that has still kept me at a loss of 11 pounds!

I will post a picture of the little one once I scan it!

Something IS NOT Right!

So last week, I had this pang really low under my uterus. The nurse said it was probably just ligaments, and to go home and rest and to call her if it happens again. Well, it started again yesterday- mid-afternoon- very mild and not very often. Well, these pangs started to pick up in frequency, and even after I went to bed, these pangs kept me up---they aren't bad but they are just not right. They make me nervous, and I couldn't sleep because of thinking about them.

I know---call the doctor. I didn't because I am going today at 2. I really want them to take me seriously. It really hurt when I got a pap, and the nurse had said my cervix is sitting really low. What does that mean? I was reading yesterday---I swear---I shouldn't read. It makes me freak out because I read all these things it could be. UGH!

I just pray that everything is okay with the baby and that this pain goes away.

"Pregnancy Looks Good On You"

Yesterday, I wore my new dress to work, and everyone just made me feel so good. I went to a meeting after work, and someone said to me, "Pregnancy Looks Good On You." That just made me feel so good!

There are days where you see your body changing, and you are absolutely mortified. There are things that have happened that I will never post because it is just too much information. That is what Belly Laughs by Jenny McCarthy is for! :) There are other days that you feel really good; there are days you look at yourself and just say, "Oh God." When I have those days, I feel really guilty because what is happening to me is a miracle, and it is a beautiful thing. I guess what I am trying to say is that I feel both great and yucky all at the same time and always feel bad about feeling yucky. Does that make any sense?

Then there is this---someone said to me, "Why are you wearing maternity clothes? You don't even look pregnant." Well, for the record---my pants do not fit anymore. I have the maternity clothes and at this point, are much more comfortable. I think I can do whatever I want!

But to end on a positive note, I generally feel that pregnancy is working for me! :)

Busy Weekend!

What a busy and productive weekend!

My mom (she rocks my world) painted the ceilings upstairs on Friday. On Saturday, she and I went out and bought paint for the baby's room as well as some other things. She and I sanded the walls down. We decided to just paint over the paneling because the sheetrock underneath is in poor condition.

Russ primed and painted the room over the weekend. He has one more coat to do plus the trim work...but so far, that room is bright! We picked a light green color. Russ hates it at the moment, but I think it will grow on him. Nothing is on the walls, no furniture- plus it needs another coat.

I went out with Melanie Duarte yesterday who is leaving for a whole year! She bought the baby it's first outfit! It is so cute! It is a three piece set with little paw prints all over it! It is cream and tan colored and has a little bear on the front! She also got us a coordinating blanket that matches the outfit. I tried looking for it online so I could post a picture- but I can't find one!

Tonight- I MUST hem my work dress pants. I no longer fit in my regular pants. My belly popped on Friday! :)

Dr. Appt Today

I didn't have an ultrasound today, but I will be going to the big one in two weeks! I have LOST 17 pounds! Yippee! Who would have thought pregnancy can bring on weight loss! Great!

I did ask about Russ' bloodwork because at my last appointment they didn't bring it up. Apparently, Russ and I do not have blood that works together. I have an antibody in my blood from my blood transfusion when I was a baby, and Russ has the antigen they didn't want him to have in his blood. At this point, the risk is having a baby that is aniemc. (I don't think I spelt that right.) My nurse talks so much that I am not sure what they are doing to do except monitor my blood by having me get my blood drawn more often.

She listened to the baby's heartbeat and all was good and strong! It was so cool to hear it beating. In all these baby books I am reading, they say that I could feel the baby move at any point. I can't wait for that to happen!

Productive but Sleepy Weekend- Part 2

Russ and I decided on names.

For a girl- Addison Rachel

For a boy- Aiden Russell

Either way---initials will be ARD. We didn't plan it...nor did we plan on picking only A names or picking one of the most popular boy names...but we like them...and we are sticking to it!

I go for an ultrasound tomorrow---I MUST remember to tell the technician that we do not want any clues as to the sex of the baby. :) Russ would...but not me. He is being so kind to wait it out with me. I do want to know but I really want the surprise...and I know, I know...it is killing everyone else and more of a shocker if you think about it is that for once...I am patiently waiting to find out. So unlike me!

Productive but Sleepy Weekend

Russ and I went to Target, and we did a registry there. We found bedding to be much less expensive! It was $45 vs. $179! That is a big difference. We put a little bit on that registry, and then we went to Babies R Us...had that sweet older lady again...and made some corrections and additions. We are done!

Ironically, on Saturday, my mom and I went to the paint store to get ceiling paint for upstairs, and I picked out a green color I really liked. I brought two different sample sheets, and Russ picked the same color! We sure are on the same wave length. Even better---the bedding we picked out matches perfectly to it!

So I think my mom will be over on Saturday to paint our ceilings upstairs, but I think it will take a few days because she needs to put a base coat to cover the water stains. I can't wait to get everything organized.

But I am sure sleepy today. Sleeping has become a whole new arena! :) I am finding that I am getting Charlie Horses at least four nights a week, my dreams are so vivid, that I woke up crying so hard that I thought the person I was dreaming about really died, and I am using three pillows because I can't get use to sleeping on my side.

Our Anniversary

Russ and I celebrated our 4th anniversary yesterday. He is so funny- he thought it was three years. He sent me flowers---sunflowers. He is so cute---he said to me as we left for work, "Have a bright and sunny day!"

So we decided to go out last night...we brought the dogs to mom's house, and we went to Espo's. I got what I always get---Penne Vodka. Don't worry---the vodka gets cooked off. Well, it wasn't good according to my pregnant taste buds. Russ even tried it and said it was fine. So, needless to say, I didn't have much for dinner. We went to Friendly's after, and I got a Reese's Peanut Butter Cup sundae. That hit the spot! I must remember that when I go out, I should just get a steak...nothing else seems to taste good to me. (Unless it is ice cream!)

Maternity Clothes and Baby Registries

Okay---so I did buy underwear---NEVER get it from WalMart. I was in a rush and thought, "Oh, these will work!" Wrong. The crotch is so wide; it got me wondering who designed these things? An elephant?"

I went down to the Motherhood store in Kittery on Sunday thinking because it says outlet it will be cheaper. Nope---the only difference is they have clothes marked, "As Is." Meaning---they discount things that have been damaged or have flaws. I did get a dress that was marked "as is" but couldn't find anything wrong with it. Everything else is priced the same as the store that is in the mall.

I got a pair of cropped jeans that are so long for me that if I uncuff them- I have jeans for this fall and winter! All the other jeans were either too big or too small. I got a pair of black pants that are kahki like...and they were in XL! That made me feel good. I got two t-shirts, and a cute polka-dotted dress with three quarter length sleeves. I already had purchased two pairs of dress pants, a sweater and a cami. Now all I need is a few dress shirts for work and two long-sleeve knit shirts for this fall and winter.

I wore my new jeans and t-shirt on Monday, and today I am wearing my black pants and another t-shirt. Some might say that it is too early but with sitting at work all day, and the way I bloat after lunch, I find I am so uncomfortable in my regular clothes...so I am in that in between state, so I guess I would rather have clothes that are a bit too big then feel restricted.

Russ and I also started our registry! WOW! That was tough! We couldn't get over how expensive bedding is...we are going to keep looking and probably take off the one we signed up for. You would think that a crib- which uses less material then a king or queen size bed would be less expensive, right? Wrong! Everything was between $150-$200 bucks! I think in my next life I will either run a baby store or a wedding shop...everything gets marked up when you say baby or wedding. We didn't scan things like onsies and lotion...We do need to go back and add some things like a matteress...the one we scanned didn't have a price...when we got home and looked at it online- it was $200! That is too much. I must say that the best part of doing the registry was meeting the lady who helped us---she was so grandmotherly...it was sweet.