Updates

Today, I went to my breastfeeding support group. I told the nurse that I was about ready to give up and just start supplementing so that I wouldn't have to pump so often because I wasn't seeing an increase in my milk supply. She taught me how to get Aiden on me without the breastshield, which is good because: he is getting more of my nipple in his mouth which will give me more stimulation which should increase my milk flow...so I am hoping and willing to give it a few more days.

Also--- I am down to 200 pounds. That means I am down 31 pounds! I hope to lose 20 more by Christmas! I hope I can do it!

We are going to daycare today to sign Aiden up and write our first check! One more week at home. Boo Hoo!

Frustrations

My milk supply is low. I have been trying everything I have heard...I know it will still take some time, but it is frustrating. We went out and bought a pump, and I am worried that was a waste. I had a really stressful weekend, most of which I brought on myself but it was mostly because I was trying to balance my house and my child...plus when I am stressed, I like to have my house in order because it makes me feel better. A nasty cycle.

Plus, my temp quit- so it just makes me even more worried about the state of my work that I will have when I return.

My church won't call me back about a baptism. The church secretary got very defense, and I wasn't even rude.

My child will not sleep at night lately. He moaned, groaned and fussed while asleep for over two hours last night! He won't sleep quietly or calmly unless he is on me or Russ or on our bed.

Plus- everything I eat is giving me gas which then gives Aiden gas. I don't know what to do.

I just feel frustrated---and sort of lost about what to do.

Being a Stay at Home Mom

I think I could do it...but it is very hard too...I find I am always planning and trying to get things done...because I am such a planner. I coordinated items with the daycare. I am dreading daycare. I really don't want to leave my child with anyone but someone that I know...and I know I have to work up the level of comfort, and thank god that work is giving me two weeks to ease back with half days! I just hope that I can get through it. I am really going to try to just soak up as much as I can while I am home. Why does money have to be such a dictator of how we live? I HATE IT!

Sorry for the ramblings.

I must post this picture of my sister-in-law Karen. She was absolutely giddy with excitement when Aiden was born. It was hilarious and sweet!

Updates---I think this post is always going to have TMI

So, I had heard that women who breastfeed get contractions similar to labor pains when breastfeeding...and it hadn't happened....until last night!!!!!! It hurt really bad!! I was crying, and Russ had to get me a heating pad and some meds. I thne slept for the rest of the night.

Maybe it was because Aiden had successfully breastfed twice yesterday? I mean, I have been pumping constantly....then it happened again this morning. It wasn't as bad this morning- last night I had pain throughout my torso with pressure in my bum...this am it was more like period cramps and only on my left side. Thank goodness these pains only last up to half an hour but I am afraid of having these pains when I am home alone with Aiden or in a store.

But---we have had success with breastfeeding- still need the breast shield to make it work...but that is okay. :)