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"I See Love In His Eyes"

Today's post is about Daddy.

This morning, Russ and I were rushing to get out the door, and Russ was putting Aiden in the carseat. He always takes the time to really look at him, and as he picked up the carseat to go out the door, he just casually said, "I see love in his eyes."

The other night, I was breastfeeding Aiden as part of his pre-bed routine. Russ came into Aiden's room to check on us and say goodnight to the baby. He just looked at us, and commented on how amazing it is that my body can grow this child and feed this child.

Russ is truly loving being a daddy, and he is doing a wonderful job at being a daddy. I am so very proud of him, and I love him so much! I look forward to his comments because he is really relishing in the moment and taking it all in.

Precious

Stuff

This is the first full week of work and daycare, and Aiden caught a cold early Monday, so I have really struggled with being away from him. I like his daycare but I am finding that I am very possessive of my son and get very upset with how loving my providor is towards my son. I know that sounds weird because it is great that she is kind and loving and gentle and caring towards him...but I am jealous and upset that I can't do that for him all day long, and I am upset that the one day I drop him off and he is awake, she takes him out of my arms. I realize she is probably trying to get me out of the drop so in the future I learn how to drop him off and not create anxiety...but it is only our first full week. I don't know! Plus, he has been doing most of his sleeping in his car seat which bothers me. She has a pack and play and a bouncy seat...

Yesterday, we bought an activity mat and brought it to her. I am hoping she puts him on it. He is really starting to grab for things and look at things, and since I can't be there to stimulate him all day long, I really hope she is doing it. I will look forward to seeing his notes tonight when I get home.

The other day I said, "My son....," and it was just like saying my husband or my finance for the first time. It gave me the shivers!

I bought a "hooter cover" the other day too. I hope it works well. Aiden doesn't like to be covered up while nursing, and he does horrible nursing when I have him covered. The hooter cover has a good bit of ventilation, so I hope that this works...I don't want to have to go to a bathroom or dressing room or some corner when he needs to eat and struggle with a blanket, etc.

I know I am rambling...my thoughts are all over the place, and I am just down right tired! I think Russ is going to let me sleep in on Sunday. I can't wait!

Colds and Laughing

Aiden laughed for the first time on Sunday night! It was so precious! I wish you could have all heard him. He was starting to doze on my shoulder...and just gave three little chuckles!

On Sunday night, he didn't want to be put down...he wouldn't let up. He was like that all evening. Well, at 4am, when we got up for a feeding, he was all stuffed up! He has a cold. I called the doctor's office yesterday afternoon because there isn't too much you can do for a little person, so I wanted to know what I could do. I went out and got a vaporizer---it is a frog! So cute! Today, he is still stuffy and didn't really want to eat. He was in a good mood though. Hopefully, I don't get a call from daycare!

First Week Back

So the first day of daycare was on Tuesday. We need to be out by 7:30 in the am but on this day we wanted to be out by 7:15 so that I could spend some time at daycare...

Well, Aiden puked in his Moses basket at 6:45am right before Russ went to get him to go change him...so it was time to get out a bath. We managed to still get out on time, and I got to work in time! I actually did okay...only cried here at home when Russ put Aiden in his car seat!

Aiden has done really well at daycare. Work has been fine...just overwhelming with the amount I need to organize. There are office supplies missing, a gift certificate for the auction missing...UGH! So many deals have happened, and I don't know about them...so it stresses me out. But not like it would have before...

Pumping at work is interesting. I actually found doing half days at home and half days at work hard because when I am home---baby wants to eat, needs a diaper change, etc. I found myself sitting on the floor with my back up against the couch, laptop on the coffee table, boppy on my lap and baby on boob. It was very complicated.

Well, next week is daycare all day---so we will see how it goes!

Smiles!

Just look at that smile! Oh it just kills me. Nothing goes through my heart like that smile!

He has been cooing and just so adorable!

Six Weeks Post-Delivery...With More Boob Problems

It has been six weeks! Time flies! My little guy is already 11 pounds 1 oz. WOW! We have been using only one to two bottles a day now---so almost completely on the boob! ;) But he is still getting breastmilk. I went to the lactation consultant today because I thought he was latching on wrong because my nipples hurt so badly to the point that I was in tears last night when I couldn't hold Aiden against me without severe pain. I was confused because I didn't have any cracking, splitting, or anything like that.

Here is what we decided: I either have thrush (yeast infection) or Raynaud's Phenomenon. I think it is Raynaud's---meaning my nipple turns white, then blue, then red. It means that the blood flow is lacking and slowly returns. It hurts when I get cold or chilled especially. It can be thought of thrush because of the type of pain I am having but I do not have pain when I am nursing. Another thing I learned...if I do have thursh, Aiden's pediatrician will not treat him unless he presents with symptoms even though he is now a carrier of it, so if I do have thrush and it gets cleared up, Aiden can just give it back to me. So....I am hoping it isn't thrush.

On a fun note...I am getting my hair colored tonight! I haven't decided yet if we are just going with blonde highlights or red and blonde highlights or just red highlights! FUN!