First Week Back

So the first day of daycare was on Tuesday. We need to be out by 7:30 in the am but on this day we wanted to be out by 7:15 so that I could spend some time at daycare...

Well, Aiden puked in his Moses basket at 6:45am right before Russ went to get him to go change him...so it was time to get out a bath. We managed to still get out on time, and I got to work in time! I actually did okay...only cried here at home when Russ put Aiden in his car seat!

Aiden has done really well at daycare. Work has been fine...just overwhelming with the amount I need to organize. There are office supplies missing, a gift certificate for the auction missing...UGH! So many deals have happened, and I don't know about them...so it stresses me out. But not like it would have before...

Pumping at work is interesting. I actually found doing half days at home and half days at work hard because when I am home---baby wants to eat, needs a diaper change, etc. I found myself sitting on the floor with my back up against the couch, laptop on the coffee table, boppy on my lap and baby on boob. It was very complicated.

Well, next week is daycare all day---so we will see how it goes!

Smiles!

Just look at that smile! Oh it just kills me. Nothing goes through my heart like that smile!

He has been cooing and just so adorable!

Six Weeks Post-Delivery...With More Boob Problems

It has been six weeks! Time flies! My little guy is already 11 pounds 1 oz. WOW! We have been using only one to two bottles a day now---so almost completely on the boob! ;) But he is still getting breastmilk. I went to the lactation consultant today because I thought he was latching on wrong because my nipples hurt so badly to the point that I was in tears last night when I couldn't hold Aiden against me without severe pain. I was confused because I didn't have any cracking, splitting, or anything like that.

Here is what we decided: I either have thrush (yeast infection) or Raynaud's Phenomenon. I think it is Raynaud's---meaning my nipple turns white, then blue, then red. It means that the blood flow is lacking and slowly returns. It hurts when I get cold or chilled especially. It can be thought of thrush because of the type of pain I am having but I do not have pain when I am nursing. Another thing I learned...if I do have thursh, Aiden's pediatrician will not treat him unless he presents with symptoms even though he is now a carrier of it, so if I do have thrush and it gets cleared up, Aiden can just give it back to me. So....I am hoping it isn't thrush.

On a fun note...I am getting my hair colored tonight! I haven't decided yet if we are just going with blonde highlights or red and blonde highlights or just red highlights! FUN!

Updates

Today, I went to my breastfeeding support group. I told the nurse that I was about ready to give up and just start supplementing so that I wouldn't have to pump so often because I wasn't seeing an increase in my milk supply. She taught me how to get Aiden on me without the breastshield, which is good because: he is getting more of my nipple in his mouth which will give me more stimulation which should increase my milk flow...so I am hoping and willing to give it a few more days.

Also--- I am down to 200 pounds. That means I am down 31 pounds! I hope to lose 20 more by Christmas! I hope I can do it!

We are going to daycare today to sign Aiden up and write our first check! One more week at home. Boo Hoo!

Frustrations

My milk supply is low. I have been trying everything I have heard...I know it will still take some time, but it is frustrating. We went out and bought a pump, and I am worried that was a waste. I had a really stressful weekend, most of which I brought on myself but it was mostly because I was trying to balance my house and my child...plus when I am stressed, I like to have my house in order because it makes me feel better. A nasty cycle.

Plus, my temp quit- so it just makes me even more worried about the state of my work that I will have when I return.

My church won't call me back about a baptism. The church secretary got very defense, and I wasn't even rude.

My child will not sleep at night lately. He moaned, groaned and fussed while asleep for over two hours last night! He won't sleep quietly or calmly unless he is on me or Russ or on our bed.

Plus- everything I eat is giving me gas which then gives Aiden gas. I don't know what to do.

I just feel frustrated---and sort of lost about what to do.

Being a Stay at Home Mom

I think I could do it...but it is very hard too...I find I am always planning and trying to get things done...because I am such a planner. I coordinated items with the daycare. I am dreading daycare. I really don't want to leave my child with anyone but someone that I know...and I know I have to work up the level of comfort, and thank god that work is giving me two weeks to ease back with half days! I just hope that I can get through it. I am really going to try to just soak up as much as I can while I am home. Why does money have to be such a dictator of how we live? I HATE IT!

Sorry for the ramblings.

I must post this picture of my sister-in-law Karen. She was absolutely giddy with excitement when Aiden was born. It was hilarious and sweet!

Updates---I think this post is always going to have TMI

So, I had heard that women who breastfeed get contractions similar to labor pains when breastfeeding...and it hadn't happened....until last night!!!!!! It hurt really bad!! I was crying, and Russ had to get me a heating pad and some meds. I thne slept for the rest of the night.

Maybe it was because Aiden had successfully breastfed twice yesterday? I mean, I have been pumping constantly....then it happened again this morning. It wasn't as bad this morning- last night I had pain throughout my torso with pressure in my bum...this am it was more like period cramps and only on my left side. Thank goodness these pains only last up to half an hour but I am afraid of having these pains when I am home alone with Aiden or in a store.

But---we have had success with breastfeeding- still need the breast shield to make it work...but that is okay. :)